Thursday, February 28, 2013

Bragging...why yes I believe I am

First let's start with the requisite baby photo.  Cute isn't he?  No I'm not bragging about him...I just think he's adorable.  We had them over for dinner last night and had a great time.  Good food, good company, good laughs.  Does it get any better.  Now I just wish it would stop snowing so they could go home. 

On to the bragging.  This kid...just got an award for scoring the most points in the entire conference in JV this season.  Pretty cool.  And yes he did make this shot.  And the free throw.  :) 

Saturday, February 23, 2013

Quote from Emily

I cut and pasted this quote from a fellow surrogates blog.  This is it.  The essence of surrogacy.  She could be speaking of me except my surrogacy journey has spanned seven years. 

After all that I have been through in the last four years, I have finally learned what it means to be "retired from pregnancy, not surrogacy." These living children are a legacy of surrogacy. As long as they live, as long as their parents tell them the story of their beginings, I will never be retired. As long as I live, I will be a surrogate. And it is far from an obligation, it is a blessing and a joy.

I am a surrogate. I don't just grow babies, I grow families.

I don't think there's a better way to sum it up.  Surrogacy is a lasting legacy.  Years from now, when childbearing is far from my thoughts and my own children are blessing me with grandchildren, there will be six children in four families that will bee a part of my ongoing story.  Surrogacy is never ending.  It is eternal and as Emily says, it is such a blessing and a joy.  I don't know how I found surrogacy.  I don't know why I have had it in my heart to be a surrogate for over 15 years now.  When I look back on the last seven years, I'm astounded by what I have been a part of.  What an amazing ride it has been and seeing these men with their children, watching them evolve as parents and getting glimpses into their lives has been one of the greatest joys of my life. 


We have been having a wonderful time visiting with the guys, playing with the baby, and just relaxing.  I went back to work on Monday and though tired, I'm doing well.  I hesitate to jinx it but I think this may be that mythical "perfect" surrogacy journey we all want to have before we retire.  Life is good. 

Sunday, February 17, 2013

And just like that

It's all over.  Healthy baby born.  Back home.  Baby with his dads.  All is well.  It's always shocking how quickly you go from pregnant to not.  36 minutes this time. 

I will write the story later.  It was perfect in every way.  I am retired (yeah, I know, I know but this time I mean it).  I am done.  I am fulfilled and happy and looking forward to new adventures. 

Currently pumping and dealing with those issues but starting to get some colostrum. 

Will write more later.  Back to work tomorrow and then some major changes will be taking place with that but i will get into that later. 

Thursday, February 14, 2013


Still here.  Still preggo. :0)

Saturday, February 9, 2013

39 weeks

Holy crap.  Sometime in the next week to ten days I will have a baby.  And that will be the last baby I will ever have.  As the kids's about time.  40 is kind of ridiculous to be still having babies (gotta love the honest truth from the mouth of 14 year old boys). 

So how do I feel?

Anxious...about the c-section.  I hate them.  But after an hour of surgery and an hour of recovery, it's ok.  Just have to get through those two hours.

Excited....for the guys.  They sound so excited.  I try to put myself in their shoes and just can't.  It's been so long since I anticipated the birth of my first. 

Ready...I am tired of the comments at work.  I am tired of people misunderstanding the motivations behind surrogacy.  I am just plain tired.  I feel sorry for those who can look at surrogacy and only see the money.  I am done being bitter or angry about it and now just feel sorry for them.  I am glad that I can see all sides of most issues and don't go through life bitter and angry and judging others.  I am glad i am not missing out on the joy in life like they are. 

Tired...self explanatory.  I have a busy life.  I am not a spring chicken.  I am 39 weeks pregnant.  Enough said. 

Sad/happy/nervous...also self explanatory.  Sad that this is my last pregnancy and I will never feel this feeling again.  Happy that this is my last pregnancy and I can move on and find out who I am again.  Nervous that this is my last pregnancy and I have to move on and find out who I am again. 

So that is it.  I will post a pic in a few.  The belly continues to grow.  I had an ultrasound the other day and they estimated the baby at 6lb12 oz.  I will be surprised if he is that small but you never know I guess.