I have been pumping for 50 weeks now. It has positives and negatives:
5 times a day I get to read my book while I pump
I get to eat like a crazy person and still not gain weight, in fact my weight has slowly dropped, and I will lose another five pounds of boob weight when I wean
I babysat my exclusively breastfed one week old grandson last night and had no issues because I could breastfeed him. (Chill out...his mom and I talked about this...I didn't just randomly breastfeed him).
I donate to two babies and send my leftovers to the PMB so it allows me to continue feeling like I am helping others, my favorite part of surrogacy.
I miss sleeping without a bra
I have a more intimate relationship with my pump than I do with my husband
It takes up those crucial 8 minutes of free time I have each day
So yeah...I want to stop pumping. I'm over it. But when I think of stopping I get an almost panicky sensation. This is it. The last link to the fertile years. I know, I know...get the heck over it already woman. You are almost 42. The fertile years are supposed to be over. GROW UP. If you stop you can train for a 10K without almost putting an eye out. You will have free time.
I feel like I need an intervention. I wish I could just stop cold turkey but that's probably not going to happen since I pump 6ish times a day and exploding boob syndrome doesn't sound like something I want to explore.
If someone could please fedex me some willpower it would be much appreciated.