Surrogates need someone to worship so that when we have a surrogate(ish) quandary we can be all like : What would (xxx) do? So for the purpose of this blog entry, I will call my surrogate idol Libbigail. She is the one with all the answers when it comes to surrogacy.
So let's start over: What would Libbigail do...
I guess I need a bit of an introduction before I jump right into this. I'm hopped up on chocolate right now (a whole flipping batch of fudge if you must know). I blame that on Joe and the kids. They have all left and I didn't want the fudge to feel left out or abandoned or just unwanted so I was forced to eat it. All.
Alone you say? Hold the phone. I'm home ALONE. Hallelujah. Joe and boy #3 went to the mall. Boy #2 is enjoying his last few hours of freedom before basketball practice starts next week. I should be typing but my boss hates me and sent me an affidavit of someone who mumbles. And has a speech impediment. So every time I start typing it I have to stop because I'm laughing hysterically which is inappropriate on so many levels because I don't really hate mumblers or those with speech impediments...once again I blame the chocolate which if you go back to paragraph two, is really the fault of Joe and the kids.
So while avoiding the mumbling speech impediment prone complainant, I checked my e-mail and there was gorgeous pictures of my most recent surrogate spawn and more talk of a sibling project. Which brings us to:
What would Libbigail do?
1. Encourage the guys to find a younger, less sliced surrogate (this is obviously the right choice. I know this is the right choice. We are going with this choice).
2. Go get screened because maybe I am the right choice. (I am not the right choice. I know I heal well but come on already. This whole serial pregnancy thing has to stop somewhere. It's starting to get embarrassing).
3. Keep pumping so that 2 is not a choice and 1 becomes the only choice. This is also a good choice bur really, shouldn't I be adult enough to just say no to my whole "I wanna gestate forever" thing. Plus have you ever pumped long term? I've pumped for 8 months now. Almost 9 months. Every day. 7 to 8 times a day. My nipples could have their own zip code. I have personally donated to five babies and also to a milk bank. Pumping is good. But really this must end sometime.
I know what I should do. I know what is right to do. But I also am fairly confident that I could carry again because I heal well and my uterus "looks great" according to my OB. I want what is best for the guys and surely a younger surrogate is better for them. I know I'm healthy and work out and have great surrogate-friendly insurance but still.
Maybe I will wake up tomorrow and my uterus will have fallen out. That would fix the whole issue right there...