Bernadette's posts make me cry every time I read them. Part of it is that she is an amazingly descriptive writer. But part of it is that she and I are members of a club that no mother ever wants to be a member of. We both lost children way too early. Samantha would be 18 this year. I go weeks without ever thinking of her but whenever I go past a softball game or a gymnastics meet or a girls clothing store I wonder who she would have been. I have five kids and have given birth to six kids for others. My heart is full and always will be, but there will also always be a hole in it, an area of sadness for the only biological daughter I ever had.