Sunday, January 6, 2013
On final approach
We are nearing the end here folks. C-section is scheduled. We have discussed labor, delivery, breastfeeding (I will be breastfeeding the baby in the hospital and then pumping afterwards). I have asked off for work, have my release to return to work that the doctor has to sign, have my "master plan" in my head for how my life will go after, have a set of triplets that I will be pumping for after the Canadian goes home. I'm as ready as I will ever be. And yet part of me is already shriveling up....how do you say goodbye to a large part of who you are. How do you sum up a year and a half of friendship and partnership and close it out and move on. I've done it three times before. I can and will do it again. I am not sad, I am just...I don't know. Other surrogates get it...no one else really can. The end of a great adventure is near, with all the drastic shifts that that entails. All I can do is sit by and wait and watch and try to be prepared for the storm of emotions that are approaching. Here we go again folks...one last time.