More bloodwork

Again. Same bloodwork. Again. Today at 4:15. Almost out of Lupron so let's hope everything is good and I can lower the dose. No results until tomorrow since the appointment is so late. Pray for good news or really bad news....I just can't stand another week on 10 units of Lupron.

Back

from the wilds of rural MO. Lining is still thick. Estrogen is still high. Cycle is still delayed. More bloodwork Tuesday along with another lining check. If everything is not ok by that point then I'm going to ask to just cancel the cycle and restart. I have been on 10mL of Lupron for a month now and the headaches are becoming unbearable.

Gone baby gone

Signing out now for a week. Won't be back into the internet world for the next week. I plan to get sand in every crevice and relax and enjoy my family. Can't wait (although that sand crevice thing might be a smidge uncomfortable). See you on the other side. :)

Get over it

Warning....warning.....Small rant ahead.

I am going to make a t-shirt. It is going to say

I am a surrogate for GAY MEN
GET OVER IT

I am going to wear said shirt everywhere. To mass. To Catholic school functions. To work. To the grocery store and the library and the bowling alley and every damn place I go. And maybe, ten years from now, when the shirt is old and dirty and holey, people will finally get the heck over it. Because you know what, I'm not gonna stop carrying babies for gay men. Even when I am retired, I will still be a surrogate for gay men in my heart.

Rant over.

The fat lady is warming up

Lining was still a six. If I had to guess I would say that that is too thick. We shall see what the clinic says but I would say we are done for this cycle. Not sure where we go from here. Oh well. Time will tell.

Follow up

Follow-up lining check is tomorrow bright and early. They wanted it to be next week but we are out of town all week on vacation so that is not possible. I had my first check on Wednesday and my lining was an 8. I continued to bleed (though not heavily at all) the rest of Wednesday. I spotted a bit on Thursday and just a tiny bit today. So as much as I hope that my lining is thin in the morning, I don't expect it to be. I just don't see how I could have lost 8mm of lining. I was stupid and did not ask the clinic how thin it needs to be to start estrace. I would assume between a 2 and a 4 but I don't know. I am supposed to ask the clinic what the measurement is when I am there tomorrow. I will then email this measurement to my clinic and they will give me instructions. My estrogen was a bit high but not horribly so...it is my understanding that my estrogen level won't delay the cycle but my lining will.

So I guess tomorrow morning I will know the fate of this cycle to a certain extent but not really since if things don't look good I am not sure what they will do about the egg donor and her window of only one week. Oh well. Whatever is meant to happen will happen. And meanwhile I am less than 48 hours away from my first vacation in years so even if the monitoring clinic tells me that my lining is now a 17.4 and there's a polar bear in there, I don't think it will bring me down for long. (No...I'm not really that nonchalant about it...I want my body to do the right thing so that it does not mess this up for everyone else...just trying to think positively.)

Uh oh

Longer post later but to sum it up:
Lining did not shed enough
Estrogen is still too high
Cycle is scrubbed

I have been reading alot of surros having this reaction because we are all getting our Lupron from a pharmacy that compounds it themselves and it is not right. But it could also be that I am old and my body is old and tired. Who knows. Waiting for instructions since I know ED had only one window. I think there are several possibilities:

1. They will retrieve the ED, freeze the eggs and we will do a FET
2. They will scrub us both and wait for her next window which is like December
3. They will find a new surro super fast and use her with this ED in this window

I am ok with any of those. Whatever works best and gets the guys the baby they are dreaming of. Off to work.