Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Well that can't be a good sign

So last night as I was sitting in bed getting ready to lay down I started getting menstrual cramps.  Sort of on auto pilot I headed to the bathroom to get a pad when it struck me, "Hey idiot...you are supposed to be pregnant.  This is not good."  Neither was the ensuing bleeding and cramping.  These were not "meh" cramps either, these were "oh God now how does that Lamaze stuff go" cramps.  So I get up this morning and I'm still bleeding though nowhere near as heavily.  I e-mailed my IFs (I was going to wait if the bleeding had stopped but since it hadn't I felt they should be in the loop) and then went for my already scheduled bloodwork.  While there I tried to finagle an ultrasound but no go since the clinic had not ordered one.  Bummer.  So for the next two weeks we get to wonder if:

(1) I have had a miscarriage and there's nothing in there at all
(2) I was preggo with twins and one miscarried, leaving me preggo with one
(3) I have a sch

Two weeks.  Two weeks.  My IFs are pulling their hair out.  I'm going to go drown myself in a vat of boiling oil. 

So what do I think?  I don't know what to think.  It was a lot of blood.  And clots.  And (TMI...sorry) slimy stuff.  I don't see how there could still be a baby in there. 

Beta was 5033 at 18dp5dt.  But if i just miscarried last night it would still be high. 

I am exhausted by this process this time and feel horrible for my guys. 


  1. Oh, no. I know that everybody has one of those "I have this friend who..." type of stories, but I HAVE seen many people have heavy bleeding this early and then go on to have a healthy baby. I'm praying for you, your IFs, and whoever is hanging on in there.

  2. My own experiences...I had the same thing happen to me. I was 6w0d. I wasn't scheduled for my u/s for a few days. I woke up and when I went to the bathroom I wiped and there was some blood. Within about 15 mins though, I was practically hemmoraging. It was very clotty. I called the RE and they had me come in right away. I wasn't even sure I'd make it without a bloody mess in the car. I'd gone through 3 fat pads in less than an hour. But I made it. I found out I was carrying twins, and everything was fine. The bleeding stopped later on that day. They couldn't seem to find the source of the bleed, but they assumed it was a SCH that had already resolved its self.
    Thats just my experience. I hope yours turns out as positively.
    I also was certain I was miscarrying. I thought...there is no way I could still be pregnant after all this. It sure was scary.

  3. Waiting for two weeks will be torture. Keeping my fingers crossed for you and your IFs.

  4. Oh no. I will be crossing my fingers for you all. Hopefully its just one of those things, and there is still a healthy one growing in there.

  5. I am crossing my fingers that it is just one of those IVF type things and you have some good news in 2 weeks.

  6. Oh wow, I'm sorry. I hope you get good news SOON. They should totally schedule you to come in for an ultrasound - no brainier. Hang in there.